So, in my post-Spring Break revelation of "maybe I'm just happier riding the surf on a bodyboard", I dove into the finer points of bodyboarding.
Watching instructional videos and movies (why does it seem like bodyboard films also want to be Jackass films?) got me amped up to do more of this (bodyboarding, not recreating Jackass) and then one thought crept back into my head:
But don't you want to stand up on a proper surfboard at least once? Really feel what you've dreamt about feeling for years? Besides, can you really call yourself a surfer if you haven't done that at least once?
For fuck's sake, brain! Really?! Have I just spent so much of my life drawing lines where one side is failure and the other success? Why am I being so binary about it?!
In all of this, I pinged an Instagram friend asking about his bodyboarding kit. Curious to see what he uses because the ads surely want me to get one thing, but what are friends using? So in this discussion he drops the classic "Hey, so long as you're having fun, right?"
I know he's right. So long as I'm in the water, yeah, I don't overthink this stuff. Sitting around the house, getting a workout done, and it's pretty much all I can think about. I'm 50 this year. I've not been great about being active most of those years.
Why can't I just let go all the time and just focus on fun?